Psalm 56:3 When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.
When was the last time you had to totally depend on someone else? What was that feeling like?
When I was in hospital, I had to fully depend on the doctors and nurses to keep me alive; a very humbling experience.
God will give you what you need when you need it. Are you willing to trust Him to do that, or will you continue to try and make something for yourself?